Thursday, August 27, 2015

For.

"For or against?" she said.

The look on my face was probably a mixture of confusion, surprise, shock, disgust, and anger all rolled into one.

"FOR." I said firmly.

My mind was racing, and all I wanted to do was reach across the counter and slap the fire out of the Walmart cashier who just rang up my five pack of digital pregnancy tests. On my way home, I prepared a speech for her, since I was too angry to speak at the moment I had my chance. Here goes.

You really asked me if I am for or against being pregnant? Excuse me while me and all the other mothers out there trying to conceive bring our army to stare you down with an evil, unimpressed glare. I am for life. I am for having a baby and a family with my husband, whom I love with my whole heart. I am for the precious look he had on his face this morning when he saw the pregnancy test wrapper on the counter and excitedly asked "where is it?!" I am for his gentle, comforting words and kisses when he read the window boasting "Not Pregnant."

I am for the mothers who take care of their babies as they should. I am for the grandmothers, aunts, and relatives who take care of the babies whose mothers can't or just won't. I am for fathers who love their children, even if they don't get to see them near as much as they'd prefer.

I am for spit up, dirty diapers, and no sleep. I am for potentially going a couple of days without a shower just to make sure that my baby is cared for and his or her needs may be met. I am for all nighters when I will probably not sleep a wink just so that I can watch my sweet baby breathing and smell that intoxicating scent that only a baby can produce.

So to answer your question, I am FOR. Even if it was unintentional, I would still be FOR. I will always be FOR.

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